The Truth

"Time doesn't wait for anyone.  There is a part in every day when I lie to myself and say that its ok. Cause if I don't, I think I'll go insane.. but the truth is, I only have myself to blame." -The Truth

   I don't know why, but this lyric really speaks to me... I take that back, I do know why.. because I was there and have been, up until two months ago, I was.  It took a while, but I believe that I finally got some of this life thing figured out.  I still don't know what or where I want to end up, but I know who I am and who will be there along the way.  Can you say that about your life? It may seem dumb or even conceded to say that I've got my life figured out.. but isn't life just a guessing game? Trial and error.  You live for the experience you come across. "10% of life is what happens to you, 90% is how you take it." Now does this mean I never have bad days? or come across situations that I always make the right decisions? no.. as I said... life is trial and error.. I have simply agreed to all aspects or walks that I have taken thus far in life and will hopefully continue to do so.
   For example.. Failure has never been an option in my life. Even growing up, I have been expected to fail..  therefor I took that as a challenge and I am a sore loser when it comes to losing a challenge. Some can take this as a positive and others take it as a negative. Oh, my family doesn't believe I can do it so they must be right.. I'll just do what they think and go about my life... Or my way.... Watch me! I have always taken criticism  as a challenge never as a threat. Although because of this, I don't know how take compliments. I become nervous and anxious when complimented. So in this.. there is always a positive and negative to any situation... relating to my most recent post... a "grey" area. So what about you? does Criticism define you? or does it add fuel to your fire? or even better yet.. doe you learn from it and not take it literal, knowing what you are doing is right? I know for me... it lights up my world and is like adding gasoline to a bonfire..

Daddy

     Father, Dad, Daddy, no matter how you say it, it comes out as half of the importance that is suppose to be engraved in our memories as well as our lives.  What about those who have never known a father, or better yet, who have never wanted one.
    In America 20% of White Children are raised without fathers, 28% of Latino, and 57% of African American children.  What is your "daddy" like? Was he the loving, caring male figure he should have been? "It takes a man to be a father..." yes but what if his father wasn't a man? Its been said that when put in tenses or stressful situations our basic instincts kick in... which in most cases, how we were raised. So should he be blamed for acting like his own father/ or lack there of? Even if the perspective young child says "I'll be what my father never was." The only challenge is... to change. Although, does it happen? do they change... Well by the statistics that continue to rise, its a slim chance.  I know as a young girl I was considered a "daddy's girl." I was always by his side. I did everything he did. Although, the older I got, the more I understood the world and how it was suppose to be.... and how my life/relationship wasn't. And I know for a fact, that I am not alone in this thinking... but everyone has to stop and question what is right?  Everyone in this world thinks that they have it all figured out and they have all the answers. "Everyone should just listen to me and the world would be a better place..." yep and every person who just read that quote just shook there head in disagreement.
   So who should we follow if we all can't be right? The government/ President? I Think people want things to be either right or wrong. black and white... but unfortunately they aren't. There is a grey area such as, Are Drugs Wrong? Some say yes because we have been told from day one that they are.  So are Cigarettes bad? is Drinking bad? what about a glass of wine at the dinner table with your meal? hm... so black and white? Yes, It would be easier if things were black and white, but this is life and things don't get to come easy.  What about Abortion? National response is bad... ok what about the 12 year old girl who was raped and is now pregnant? The point I want to stress is that life is grey and you have to make choices considerate to you/ your life/ and your family. So is this an excuse for our fathers? What if they never had a father, or a male role model in their life... It will never make it ok at all, what I'm saying is what if they can't help but go back to what they know or don't know.  Some because they won't get help, they don't know how, or just plain ignorant to the pain they are causing.  I know that I love my father.  Although I hate the decisions that he has made that has affected not only my life but others that he supposedly loves. But I can honestly say that I understand him, and that he may never change, sometimes I just pray he would before its too late.

Live ~ Laugh ~ Love

Live. - Live your life to the fullest. You only get one life to live, why not make the best of it?  Be the person you want to be or even better... the person who makes YOU happy.  I don't believe you should limit yourself either.  Want to be the good student, with the 4.0 grades and spends 5 hours a day studying?  Then go for it.  But don't think you have to always stick to it.  You have to let loose every now and again... just to make sure your still living.  If you want to skip a class for a day and sleep, or go shopping... then do it! One day won't affect your grade or your hard work. Live. We are born to experience every day life and obstacles  that we find in our paths. Sure we can't be complete bums...(unless your into that) but we don't have to always follow the rules either. So go out and experience, because thats what makes us wise. Not following in the footsteps of others.  So throw out the rule book and live YOUR life and remember "Live like you were dying."


Laugh. - "No one can make you feel inferior, unless you let them." Famous words by Eleanor Roosevelt and did she say it all...  I love to laugh, and if you ask people in my life... they will tell you I laugh a lot and at the little things. Which I do believe are the most important in life.  I love to laugh. I love to smile. Because to me... the more you laugh and smile, the happier person you will be. Even if your not. You can change your mood or mind set by simply changing our attitude or perception of any situation.  Look at the good in every situation, and eventually you will become a more positive person.  Sure, there will always be points in life that you can't laugh or smile about. Death, Heartbreak, or even illness. But just because we can't smile or laugh about it, there is always a good side or a positive.  Out of these I believe the worst to deal with is heartbreak... Everyone and I mean EVERYONE wants that thing called love. Some get it and some don't but you will always wonder.  And once you've lost it... your world is gone. We all know we are going to die some day... and so are our loved ones.  Its nature. So Why not look on the brighter side of things? "Be yourself, because everyone else is taken." 

Love. - "Love is patient, love is kind and is not jealous; love does not brag and is not arrogant, does not act unbecomingly; it does not seek its own, is not provoked, does not take account a wrong suffered, does not rejoice in unrighteousness, but rejoices with the truth; bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things. Love never fails. " To me, Love is the one thing that we as humans live for.  There comes a time when you decide if you want to live or die. And I truly believe that if you don't have love in your life, you won't make it.  We are born as children, learn through experiences, live life, find a mate (fall in love), have more children, die.  Sad but true as live goes on, so does the world.  So who do you love? and what are you doing about it? Go out and seek it. Who makes you happy and who would you want to spend the rest of your life with?  It doesn't have to happen now, as long as you know at least what the guide lines are to your life and how you want your future to be.  "We need to get back to basis of love."  And just so you know... Even though I do not know you, I may never meet you, cry with you, or hug you... I love you. With all my heart.... I love you <3

I hope you Dance

   "Life sucks, then you die."

   Those sure are positive words .... aren't they?  This is how everyone feels from time to time.  I know I do.  But why does life have to be this way? I mean why can't we have perfect lives, with perfect husbands, and perfect babies??? Well for starters... cuz that would be boring. And the Media wouldn't exist because there wouldn't be anything to talk about.  But... it does seem like we should deserve it sometimes.  A perfect life.  

So what about looking at the positives? Instead of insisting that life sucks, why not look on the bright side? Look for a meaning as to why things happen the way they do.  I mean, we all would be a little brighter inside wouldn't we? not as stressed. Its so hard to look at all the bad in the world and the evil and not feel depressed or sorry for those who suffer.  "Everything Happens for a reason"

   Love.  powerful word isn't it? Love controls this world we live in... God loves us.  Therefor he gave us free will. The only bad thing is... we are only human so we are naturally born sinners. God knows this, but he wants us to be able to decide if we want him.  That is a test of true love isn't it?  To give you the choice... and let you go explore and experience... only to hope and pray that you come back into his arms. And if you don't... he at least wants you happy. I think that is a perfect definition of what God wants..

   So if we aren't positive... and we are free to do what we wish... what comes of it? O ya.... Temptation.  "I can resist anything but temptation." famous unknown words.  Isn't it true.  You can stay on a strict diet of healthy foods... and as soon as a friend offers you a piece of chocolate cake... you take it.  Its not that you aren't a good person or a healthy person.  It is merely temptation. as most religious people refer to it... "the devil"  why do you think they have a "devils cake mix?" wow... so how can we be trusted? What made God think that we COULD be trusted??? Because of love. He loves us, and he knows if we get it figured out... we will love him just as much.  

   There is one more thing I believe needs to be mentioned in this post.... "Your Fucking Perfect." People Judge... they always have and always will. All you have to do is let them :). Because as long as you know who you are and what you stand for... nothing else matters. Ya so your insecure about your body, your looks, or even your life... Everyone is... even those who are judging.  But in God's eyes we are all the same. And some day we will all have "perfect wings." So be yourself. Live your life. Love who you want.  And of Course.... Dance as if no one is watching. 

Life's Lessons

  

   There are many times in our lives when we must be reassured about our morals, rights, or who we are as a person.  A way it is said, " God will give you only as much as you can bear."  I know I have needed to hear that many times throughout my life to give me a swift kick to get me going again.  I have learned to never question God, for any reason.  Although there have been many times when I have been caught thinking.... "I wish he didn't trust me so much..."

   But why do we doubt him? If he is God, we should instill everything, including trust, right?  So why don't we?  This is not saying anything against you or God, I am merely questioning  human nature.  Have you noticed that HE lets us do this? He allows us to do these things to ourselves and the people around us, knowing what is in store.  I am a firm believer in God and his miracles, but I really do enjoy his way of "getting our attention" by wanting us to question him...  He wants US to learn on our own. yes lead by example but its so much more than that. "Everything happens for a reason."  A quote I live by for many different reasons, as do most people I have came into contact with.  It shows us that in every situation, Good or bad, there is or can be a positive or helpful outcome.  9/11 is a great example... It was horrible, everything about it was a disaster. Although what came from it?  We, as a nation, pulled together as one.  for the first time in a long time... WE were a nation. Not one person doesn't remember that day, I was only 11 years old but remember it perfectly.  It's sad that a tragedy pulls people together, but it does, it touches our hearts.  This proves not that God wasn't there, it shows there is something much bigger for us out there.  He is here, and here to stay.  So even if you don't care, don't believe, or just don't understand... just stop and look at what's important in your life.  Did you have to face something or deal with an issue to get where you are? So from now on, before we start bickering and fighting and blaming God... stop and see what good or what change can come from it.  Find a reason... a reason to believe or to just understand why... and remember that Everything Happens for a Reason...

Daylight Dreams

  
   What if dreams were real?  What if the possibilities were as endless as they are in your dreams?  You can be who ever, whatever, and with whatever you want... But isn't life kinda like a dream?  And sometimes you just want to wake up...

   There are many definitions to a dream.  Some say they are just the sub conscience unraveling.  Then there are others that say it is our mind trying to tell us something.  But I'm not talking about flying over a mountain in the middle of Kansas with a Pig who looks like a cow.... I'm talking about your dreams... Your future, your career, or your wish.  So what are your dreams?  Do you dream about being an NFL player scoring the winning touchdown to win the super bowl.  Or how about standing on stage staring out onto millions of screaming people as they sing your lyrics.  But what if it as simple as graduating from high school or just to make it through college.  No matter what your dreams are... just remember they are your dreams, and you can never set them too high.   Les Brown once said, " Shoot for the Moon. Even if you miss, you'll land among the stars.." So what about you? Are you dreaming big enough, or living up to your dreaming potential?    Or are you merely waiting... waiting for the next step, or lowering your standards just to get by?  Its time... not only to start thinking about it, but start dreaming.  Who cares if they are far fetched or unrealistic??? That's why they are YOUR dreams. and not theirs. And ya know, with enough belief and faith, anything is possible. so my friends... dream big and never let your mind fall short of belief in yourself...

Common sense isn't to common...

   Education.  That is a word that plagues the minds of even the wisest of the wise.  Everyone has had a little and most want to continue, at least in my generation.  But what is it? Why do we strive to be the smartest when books and book smarts will get you only a piece of paper.  I know plenty of people who can figure complex problems in there head but not know how to change a tire or better yet, cook a meal.  Education is not only from the books or from a school, but it is learned at home. whether your mom teaches you to cook or sew. Or maybe your dad and you go fishing and tell stories about life, laughter, and happiness.  An unknown author once said "Common sense is too common," and ya know they are right.  What education you get from school, yes will help you look good for a career, but what you can do with that knowledge is what really counts and that my friends is when you reach success.

Forget your scars, we'll forget mine.

    Until now, I have lived on my tiptoes around people. Until now I have headed every word of my fathers'. Until now, I have lived a lie to myself.  Until now, I haven't been me.

   Isn't it funny how we hold dear the people who treat us like the carpet they walk on, and want them in our lives more then the people who don't.  For the people who love us, cherish us, and give a damn about us... we take them for granted sometimes instead of the other way around.  I know I am just as guilty as the next person when it comes to this issue.  And I understand this.... "human nature"... but why do we undergo so much stress and so much pain when there ARE others who would die for just a little attention from us?  I don't know about yours, but my reason or the reason my twisted mind can come up with is for at least one memory.  One memory, one day, that one point when it was the best you've ever had.... you want it back so bad that you would do anything for it... whether you do something stupid as to drive to their house numerous times, call them every day, or even go as far as to hang onto every word they say.  I know plenty of people who have done less/more than this and still are trying to hang on.  And yes, I do believe in the quote " Never give up on  something/someone that you can't go a day without thinking about them,"  But there is a point when you have to count your losses move on.
   And what better way to move on than to start at the beginning of a new year!  I am more excited than ever for this year.  Because I know that I will make this my year to shine.  No, I still don't really know who I want to be, or what I want to do, but I am taking that first step toward that goal of making something of myself.  The way I look at a new year is a clean slate.  People make mistakes... always have and, since we are human, they always will.  The best way for everyone to go on, is to forgive and look beyond.  Whats past is past, nothing in this world will ever last. Life is too short to hold on to the petty things, so don't let it control or better yet, define you.
   So this is what I hope to pull out of this new year... A fresh start.  New school this fall, which means new friends, new job, and another new place to live.  I am more than excited for all of this to come.  I am ready to start my future, although with a new future, you can never lose site of yourself.  I shall never lose my SEK roots or forget my last name.  And I promise to never forget the best friends I have made through these last few years.

Cape's are always in fashion

   What defines a hero?  Do they wear a cape or fly down from tall buildings to save a damsel in distress?  Or do they simply save the day with other super powers?  We all grew up with similar visions of heroes, including Batman, Superman, or even Spider man.  But who is your hero today?
   My hero is my mother.  No she is no celebrity nor does she have super strength or even laser beams shooting out of her eyes.  She had defied all odds and beat all statistics against her.  She came from a downgrade broken home, where she was belittled and treated less that respectful.  She left home soon before graduating high school and set out to fulfill her dreams.  Now you may guess that she soon fell to drugs and alcohol due to her upbringing, but no she proceeded to accomplish her goals.  And now I can say that she is the most powerful, loved, and respected woman that I know.  No matter what, she has and always will be there for anyone and everyone who needs help of any kind.  Not only is she a loan officer and Vice President of a Bank,  she sits on the chamber of commerce in her local town as well as the President of the School board.  She proudly juggles work, meetings, and a home life while never forgetting to prove she can do it.  I present to you.... My mother.

    I hope, wish, and pray that I could become half of what she stands for in my life.  I know without her, I couldn't be as strong or as driven as I am today.  When my goals/ dreams come true, it will be because of the passion and drive that I acquired from her.  And for that I thank you now, as well as thank you for the future you have given me.  I love you mom.

Never give up...

Whats your meaning?

    Do you have a meaning?  When you die, your obituary, will it say that you had a meaningful life?  Most people look at who you are or who you were before now.  Although it matters what you accomplished  throughout your life here on earth is what they will speak of.  To decide is you made life something your proud of, does it have meaning  Do you have a reason to live? or a reason to be?  Not necessarily live, because everyone here lives, although most merely exist.  What I mean is do you feel that there is a reason for you to stay. whether it be a person, an objective, or even a thought of saving humanity.
    So what do you believe you are here for?  What is your meaning of life? Does your dog need you? Do you have children who depend on you? or is it as simple as to prove that you are worth something?  But will that be enough, that when you reach that goal or the overall prosperity... what will happen? 
   A perfect example of this although most of us know it too well from school, but the people who went through the Holocaust during the 1940s in World War II.  More specific, the concentration camps.  I know you have heard/seen all of this and I'm sure, are sick and tired of hearing it.  But, did you know that most of the survivors, although severely malnutrition are almost physically healthier than you and I?  These people didn't brush there teeth, although had healthier gums than a dentist... they bathed only once maybe twice in a the amount of time they were there and they had flawless skin... they wore rags in 17* weather, yet never caught pneumonia or colds....  How is this possible?  This shows us that your mental state can control your physical state... not all the time, but some times.  Think about it, you can control most of your physical state with your thoughts and mind... relating to a meaning....
    So a couple days ago I got to thinking... wouldn't this apply to people who are categorized insane?  Are they all really insane? of do they just think they are?  I mean murderers  who can kill people are sent to jail, even if they kill  multiple people you will maybe excited.  But if you take it a step further and may be do something else to them or their bodies... that is classified as "mentally unstable" and more than likely be sent to the state house... where they won't kill you... and treat you better than jail....
    The mind is a powerful think.  It controls not only our thoughts, but our body as well.  Why do you think people always tell us to think positive?  Have you noticed that those people aren't sick as often, or have bad days?  Not only do they think positive, they live it too... Imagine if our society were to think positive if only for a couple days.... or even a couple hours... imagine how our world would change???  So relating back to a former post... lets try it... be positive if not for a couple days, maybe just an hour! Take a day to yourself and see what it does to your mind, body, and happiness. :) happy hunting. 

Living with the past.

   The past, people talk about it all the time.  But what really is it?  Whether good or bad, why does our past make or break who we are or who we become?  It's said that my past isn't what it should have been, but how do you decide between whats's said and whats real?
   People talk, but do we really listen, and the people who matter the most to us...why don't we listen to them as well as a complete stranger?  Do we really believe what we are told by our peers? or do we just agree because its what we are taught was right.
   A child should be loved, I was loved.  A child should be cared for, I was cared for.  The basic principles were taken care of, then what happen?  Why was my childhood so bad that I am to be studied?
   I would not be who I am today if it had not been for my childhood.  Although in the same sense, I also would not be where I am today without my childhood.  It's both a positive/negative situation.
   As I sit here and go through both what I know and what was said/taught, I realize that I should have known what was to happen.  My life, as I knew it, was good and understandable but what I didn't know, didn't bother me.  I was content with who I was, because to me I was a good person.  I believed I was as good as I could be at this given time.  A job, a place to live, and furthering my education.  Although with that, I had 3 jobs, now down to 2.  I live in a house not of my own or with parents.  Because I have been on my own for 4 years.  And my education is what I use as a driving factor.  Because without it, I would not want to prove myself to be better than my knowing existence.  "You won't make it," that for the most people shows no faith, but to me, it shows a challenge.  Something I have to do to show everyone that they are wrong.
   How was your childhood?  how do you think you were raised?  Was it right, moral, or even sane?  I thought mine was normal, I didn't know any difference.  It wasn't until now, a sophomore in college, that I realized mine wasn't right.  Do a little research, find some background, because it is better to know, realize now, instead of when your 30 and have 3 kids. Let's try to single this out now, so that we don't let the next generation go through what others did. 

A time of need

   Today in my local town we had a happy holiday feeling.  The businesses in the area opened up today with discounts, smiles, and cookies.  So naturally everyone was out and about.  Isn't it funny how we can only be friendly or show a smile during the "holiday season?"  And even then, people have to tell/remind us to do it.  Why can't we just help each other on a daily basis?  Does no one get that we could stop violence, world hunger, and all the things that they threaten us with all with just a simple smile?  A smile, is the strongest sight in the world.  Whether it be with tears or laughter, a smile can change someones heart in an instant. 
   On my way home today I saw a glimpse of a great thing in the making.  The road I travel is a four lane coming and going out of town.  At the edge of my turn, there is an apartment complex.  As I drew closer I noticed two little boys standing at the edge of a fence with the look of horror on there faces.  Their ball had gone over the fence and into the four lane traffic.  Just as a car almost hit it, a car that I recognized to be a good friend of mine, pulled over.  Got out of the car to dodge traffic to retrieve the boy's ball.  I can only imagine the look on those Boy's faces. 
   Do me a favor, take one day, just one day....  and do 3 simple things.   Smile, think positive about any and all situations that arise that day, and help someone, even if its holding a door.  It's amazing how one person's single action can change one person's life forever.

Pain is weakness leaving the Body.

  
      Pain is described in many different ways depending on the situation.  You can never use the word "all pain,"  when you try to define this complex word.  Pain is physical, but also a mental factor that we catch  onto every day.  Whether you know it or not, pain is a motivator, a symbol, and a killer.   When you think of pain, what do you see? A kid with a broken arm, or a broken spirit due to a loved one's loss, none the less pain is something we believe we must see.  When I think of the word pain, I see multiple situations surrounding the issue.  A football player with a broken leg, a kid who just lost his grandfather, or even a woman who found out her husband has been unfaithful.... this is pain.  Pain is a feeling, and whether you know it or not....others CAN cause pain and the true test is to see what you can get away with before you/they break. It truly takes more courage to stay and fight the pain, than to give in and die to its mercy.......

The Relationship Business

   Everyone, no matter who, wants to fall in love.  whether you believe that love is real of not, you want to at least experience something related.  People say that love is what we live for, it keeps us going in life.  The hope to find that one person to whom makes us feel complete.  It has been said that love is "one's recognition of its counter part in another."  Even nowadays, LGBT people even know what love is and believe nothing can stop it, not even judgment.
   I have seen many different sides to this so called Love.  Mostly has to do with how I was raised and how I seen love.  My parents divorced when I was only 6 months old so I never seen the love between them.  After that I seen anywhere from Forced love to getting along to live and lead a normal life.  Neither of my parents are affectionate with there spouses.  Although I have plenty of friends that wear there heart on there sleeve so to speak.  My best friend is a hopeless romantic.
   I was a daddy's girl until I got older and he got yet another divorce.  After that he became a little untrustworthy in my book.  He would leave  and not show back up for a couple days, or even a week.  He wouldn't call or anything.... He had someone else and he was just "killing time" with me.  I was 16, old enough to take care of myself.  I didn't need anything or anyone because I was a big girl and he had already taught me what I needed to know.  So I decided that I wanted to try love.   I mainly wanted to see if that would bring my father back, maybe a little protective father issues to stir up in there.  But it didn't happen.
   I believed it was real, and so did he.  We were amazing together and we thought nothing could ever change this feeling we had.  So when I brought him home to dad....he didn't care.  Instead of being the protective father, he became my boyfriends best friend.   It made me realize that I had the most maturity of the entire household.  He would call him up and say "hey why don't you come over for supper tonight and just stay with us."  yes stay with us as in, in the same house as your girlfriend.  So it was love, and it was great while it lasted.  But people change...sometimes for the good sometimes for the bad.  My boyfriend became my dad, the way he acted and treated me was the same as my dad was doing.  We lasted for almost 3 years and I had enough.
   Not only have I seen this stupid thing called love, I've experienced it.  And believe me, it is one hell of a roller coaster ride.  So when you call your gf/bf tonight, just think about it.... do you really love them? could you see yourself with this person for the rest of your life? Love is all powerful. and it does control your life.
  

Living, Loving, Caring

   I hate to be critical, but you don't know whats going on in a person's life.  Don't judge because you are alright. Because you know what? your not.  You once was just as angry, upset, or mentally confused as they were/are.  All people have pain in there lives.  Some just deal with it in different ways.  Yea, there are some people out there who like to show there emotions more than others. They are crying out for help.  I like to believe I am a strong person, unless we start talking emotions, then I shut off.  But not everyone can handle that.  They need a release.  and for most, that is dressing, acting, or even saying there not ok.  Some would really like just for you to ask them if they were ok, because to them, it shows that there is someone who cares.  We all stand the same chance to get into heaven.  God, I'm sure, has plenty of wings for all of us to fit in and I'm sure he would love for all of us to come up there at once.  So stop bullying.  Stop Judging.  Stop criticizing people for what they do and who they choose to be.  Learn to help.  Learn to be kind.  We are here to help each other reach an ultimate goal, so lets do it.

People Understanding People

   Have you ever stopped and thought " I wonder what they are thinking?"  This happens to me on a regular basis.  It may be  weird or a little creepy, but I don't care.  People amaze me in the fact of how they can treat other humans so different depending on either looks, culture, or the life they live.  Just to clarify, God created us all in his image, his only rule? was for us to find the path we wanted to him.  Simple...free will. 
   People choose who thy want to be, why must we make fun of, or judge them?  We all are here for a purpose, otherwise, God woulda killed us off long ago.  I know I am stating the obvious, but why don't we see it?  what will it take to overlook yourself and start helping your neighbors?  People, we are all trying to make it down this road of life.  Everyone is going to run out of gas or lose a tire at some point.  Why not make it easier on yourself and others by lending a helping hand.  Stop judging. Stop criticizing. Stop putting down your own species... and remember... "your not that great either" 

On our wings

   As I sit here tonight I ponder on a few things. Life being of the up most importance of these, I wonder as to how we are to get along without friends in this world.  I know myself, I have at least two best friends as well as a handful of true friends.  You know a friend is one of Gods gifts to us.  They are responsible to help us through life, and pick us up when we trip or stumble.  They truly are human's guardian angels sent to watch over us.  I know for a fact that if it wasn't for my best friends, I wouldn't be here today.  They saved my life, and have given me a new outlook on the world and the people around it and us.  No one knows just how strong you are until you face something alone. That is the true test of strength, although, send me in with a friend and nothing will touch us.  A friend is someone who knows the song of our heart and sings it to us when we have forgotten the words.  To this I thank each and everyone of my friends. Because of you, I am Me....

Stand Up and do something!

         FDR was one of the most inspirational presidents, in my opinion, of all time.  You never know how far you'll go unless you at least try.  You'll miss 100% of the shots you don't take, well the same goes in life, if you hear opportunity knocking, don't ignore it, at least try to answer it.  I know I have failed at this more than once, although in my opinion, as long as the good outweighs the bad, we will always keep a positive attitude. I know that this sounds like a speech your teachers give you at the beginning of school, but is a very true statement that should be followed.  Stay positive and open the door...

Under the Stars

I have conquered the world as I was lying under the stars. Whether is was in the back of my truck, out in a field, or in the middle of a street, nothing has seemed so easy as a blanket of stars over a dark sky. Some of my fondest memories will always be stuck up there in the sky. To the stars we dream, we question, and we imagine. what will your stars say to your heart?

No one's perfect

When do you know?

When do you know when enough is enough? How long must you drag someone through this pain before you think that they have learned there lesson. who are you to think that you are, God? lessons are learned by trial and error. Are you perfect? I didn't think so....

Every had a bad day? Sure, everyone has one of those days that they wish never would have came. But no matter what happens in this life, it takes the most courage to move on, live and let die. Plenty will happen to us, it takes a strong person to react the best in the worst situations.

What will they say at yours?

While attending a service the other day I was thinking... through all the tears, pain, and anger, you stop and think who will be next? It could be you, me, your neighbor who's dogs never stop barking. No matter who it is or will be, live your life as you want to be remembered. Just because your young, doesn't give you the right to be immature and stupid... you think aw...ill make it up later. but it doesn't always work that way. God doesn't alway show mercy...

Paranoid a bit?

Why listen to what people say? Is it them you must impress? you say it doesn't matter yet you hold onto every word and take it to heart. You hide behind you keyboard and say you are your own person. but no, you are what they say you are. Being a coward is not a ligidiment career. So Conquer fear and stop believing. We were born and raised the same way, so why must you lie.

At least I don't care what these mindless people think of me.