Forget your scars, we'll forget mine.

    Until now, I have lived on my tiptoes around people. Until now I have headed every word of my fathers'. Until now, I have lived a lie to myself.  Until now, I haven't been me.

   Isn't it funny how we hold dear the people who treat us like the carpet they walk on, and want them in our lives more then the people who don't.  For the people who love us, cherish us, and give a damn about us... we take them for granted sometimes instead of the other way around.  I know I am just as guilty as the next person when it comes to this issue.  And I understand this.... "human nature"... but why do we undergo so much stress and so much pain when there ARE others who would die for just a little attention from us?  I don't know about yours, but my reason or the reason my twisted mind can come up with is for at least one memory.  One memory, one day, that one point when it was the best you've ever had.... you want it back so bad that you would do anything for it... whether you do something stupid as to drive to their house numerous times, call them every day, or even go as far as to hang onto every word they say.  I know plenty of people who have done less/more than this and still are trying to hang on.  And yes, I do believe in the quote " Never give up on  something/someone that you can't go a day without thinking about them,"  But there is a point when you have to count your losses move on.
   And what better way to move on than to start at the beginning of a new year!  I am more excited than ever for this year.  Because I know that I will make this my year to shine.  No, I still don't really know who I want to be, or what I want to do, but I am taking that first step toward that goal of making something of myself.  The way I look at a new year is a clean slate.  People make mistakes... always have and, since we are human, they always will.  The best way for everyone to go on, is to forgive and look beyond.  Whats past is past, nothing in this world will ever last. Life is too short to hold on to the petty things, so don't let it control or better yet, define you.
   So this is what I hope to pull out of this new year... A fresh start.  New school this fall, which means new friends, new job, and another new place to live.  I am more than excited for all of this to come.  I am ready to start my future, although with a new future, you can never lose site of yourself.  I shall never lose my SEK roots or forget my last name.  And I promise to never forget the best friends I have made through these last few years.